Friday, August 27, 2010

a day of memories. (sounds ominous, no? i promise, not too much angst.)

so my dream trip of trekking it up in sanfrancisco by myself fell through,
almost too good to be true and we'll see if it ever happens,

which explains why i was at the mall with my grandma today, combing through macy's clothing aisles and finding nothing but nostalgia and missing everybody

but i went on to find a skirt that cheered me up, i watched scott pilgrim vs. the world which was just as it proclaimed, an epic epic of epicness, though inappropriate to watch with my grandma at some moments, it was fun :)

but it was weird, before we had gone to the mall, my grandma and i went to eat at panera bread and the guy there who took my order had dark hair, i think blue eyes, if i remember right, but there was something about his smile or the way he talked that just reminded me of my best friend in arizona, shout out to brian! and it might have just been me

because as my grandma and i walked i saw kayla, or just a girl with red hair and a funky hat, porter, or a dude with too much hair flipping action (porter was always just too awesome to care about stuff like that)

and after the movie (which was really good) ended, i bought myself a big ass slushie/icee/icie? in blue (raspberry) and the cute guy at the counter who informed me that there was no smaller size, (i swear, it was really big) reminded of the past, of boys, of romance,

which the movie did also, which made me remember mostly. i still think about him sometimes, about how this is something that he would've liked, or that i would've liked to have seen with him or at least his reaction to it, if he really would have laughed at it with me at the same moments, things like that

and then i think about doing it all over again, risking all that crap, but mostly my heart,
yea, yea, sounds cheesy/angsty/gross

but it's kinda important, you know? and to get to the important stuff, it's never cool or original or uncliched, it's just the opposite.

so the old introspective, everything-in-life-is-pretty-much-a-metaphor-in-some-way-or-another-though-usually-not, good old me.

and if you haven't figured out by now that this is what i write, and you happen not to like it, i will not bid you not to go as you won't be the first, but this is me.

i just kinda want to know why i never see you or are reminded of you or miss you as much as i did/ (occasionally) do him, is it because i haven't lost you yet?

Thursday, August 19, 2010

new favorite word

morganatic \mawr-guh-NAT-ik\, adjective:

Of or pertaining to a form of marriage in which a person of high rank, as a member of the nobility, marries someone of lower station with the stipulation that neither the low-ranking spouse nor their children, if any, will have any claim to the titles or entailed property of the high-ranking partner.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

daughtry is pleasantly stuck in my head.

I have 47 new word of the days in my inbox so I should get reading :)

here are some of my favorites!

koan \KOH-ahn\, noun:

A nonsensical or paradoxical question to a student for which an answer is demanded, the stress of meditation on the question often being illuminating.

balneal \bal-NEE-uhl\, adjective:
Of or pertaining to baths or bathing.

fulgurate \FUHL-gyuh-reyt\, verb:
1. To flash or dart like lightning.
2. Medicine. To destroy (esp. an abnormal growth) by electricity.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

insomnia's back

darn it.
just can't seem to fall asleep like i did almost everyday in paraguay.
so i am currently watching john krazinski in brief interviews with hideous man, and hoping that i will somehow fall asleep or not be crazily tired tomorrow.

here are some insomniatic words:

 \NIT-id\, adjective:

Bright; lustrous.

behemoth \bih-HEE-muhth\, noun:
1. Any creature or thing of monstrous size or power
2. An animal, perhaps the hippopotamus, mentioned in the Book of Job.

zaftig \ZAHF-tik\, adjective:
Full-bodied; well-proportioned.

absquatulate \ab-skwoch-uh-leyt\, verb:
To flee; abscond.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

home sweet home!

i got home 3 days ago, so i apologize for this late entry

i'll write more about my incredible experience in paraguay but for now,
i leave you with this:

if there is one thing that i can take away from this experience, among thousands of lessons learned,

is that people are the same, everywhere, regardless of culture, language, gender, nationality and that you can find a family in just 6 short weeks, and you can grow to love them and them to love you, and you can cry after you leave these people who you never even knew existed, just a summer ago.

el verano de paraguay fue un gran tiempo inolvidable <3