Sunday, June 20, 2010

blast off.


Pray for a safe flight & trip :)
Will miss you all, 

Amigos de las Américas
c/o Rachel Lim
Correo – San Estanislao
C.P. 8210
South America

Paraguay vs. Slovakia, 2-0!!
Picnic today, JFK tomorrow :)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

last day left.

at grandma's house so i can say goodbye to esther & david who are going to college!

address below :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

two days left. [LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!]

field day was a crazy ending for this school year,
mad sunburned and sore but happy :)


Thursday, June 17, 2010

three days left.

that i'll be in an airport in 3 days.
that i'll be without electricity and running water(?) in 4 days.
that i'll be in a country full of people i don't know but will grow to love.
that my primary language spoken around me and by me will be Spanish and Guarani.
that i'll be able to do something amazing with people that are amazing.
that i'll be saying goodbye to everyone tomorrow until next year.
that summer is finally here.
that things are ending and life is starting.
that that that. <3 :)

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

darling, you are the only exception.

                                     four days left.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

new kind of cool

My last tuesday of school year was not actually at school today :T
Things are finally winding down and life is gearing more to the exciting side,
so here's an adventurous but mellow song just for the occasion:

New Kind of Cool by The Rescues [you can find it on grooveshark]
If you'd stay with me forever

We'll be here together
We'll make up our own rules
Create a new kind of cool

We'd never lose
We can pick and choose
Who soaks up all our fame
And we can shout and we could shut them out
Just to tarnish their names

And how I'd glow
And my beauty
Cause someone out there loves me

Right now life ain't so fun
I don't have anyone
If you only knew
The things that we could do
Just me and you
Conquer the world
King and Queen
At age 13

If you'd stay with me forever
We'll be here together
We'll make up our own rules
Create a new kind of cool
A new kind of
A new kind of Cool. 

Monday, June 14, 2010

last monday of the school year!

umm, so productivity at the moment when i most direly need it, is missing in action.

today was my last monday of the school year :)

goodbye goodbye goodbye <3

watched the paraguay game, social studies teacher was not here,
got a fair amount of work done, a lot of work to do, 6 days left to go.

wish me luck :)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

one week away, one week left

short post:

can it be that this is my last week of school already?

well that of course calls for some decidely werdnerdiness:
noctivagant \noc-tiv-A-gant\, adjective:
Pertaining to going about in the night; night-wandering.

questions for paraguay
Is there electricity where I will be living?
If it is winter, are there still mosquitoes?

Saturday, June 12, 2010

except, she does.

Matilda: Daddy, you're a crook. 
Harry Wormwood: What? 
Matilda: This is illegal. 
Harry Wormwood: [hands the car drill to Mikey, then walks to Matilda] You make money? Do you have a job? 
Matilda: No, but don't people need good cars? Can't you sell good cars, Dad? 
Harry Wormwood: Listen, you little wiseacre: I'm smart; you're dumb; I'm big, you're little; I'm right, you're wrong, and there's nothing you can do about it.

that's all for today, good night :)

up makes me cry and cry and cry every time i see it

-finished physics and history and psychology project and math
-going to bed before 11
-i didn't finish up, i think i'll finish it later <3

watching matilda, one of my favorite roald dahl books and movies.

i love this story.

she is my kind of superhero. incredibly smart for her age, after enduring injustice after injustice, she outsmarts her moronic parents and evil headmaster and then goes to lives with a beautiful and intelligent third grade teacher.

but really, i think i liked the fact that when she was little, her best friends were librarians and she and just read books all day long.

Narrator: Everyone is born, but not everyone is born the same. Some will grow to be butchers, or bakers, or candlestick makers. Some will only be really good at making Jell-O salad. One way or another, though, every human being is unique, for better or for worse.

Narrator: So Matilda’s strong young mind continued to grow, nurtured by the voices of all those authors who had set their books out into the world, like ships onto the sea. 

Narrator: These books gave Matilda a hopeful and comforting message: “You are not alone.”

ok, publicly stating this so that i will be shamed into doing this

things i have to do and will finish at least 4 of today:

- physics project
- psychology project
- history project & agendas
- learn the Charleston (a dance for history extra credit)
- organize all my stuff into important and not needed
- math project
- lit essay
- econ test & submit commentary

others that will have to wait:
- read all papers for paraguay, tons of information packets
- put up my checklist for paraguay up here and then go get it :o
- put up all the questions i have about paraguay, and the answers i receive
             ex: My parents are worried that I will get an eye infection if I bring contacts, because of the hygiene in Paraguay, so do you think that I will be able to? Speaking of which, do you even have running water? (yup, second question was really more my mom's)

really close but really far away

paraguay feels like a guy giving me mixed signals :)

almost week away, singing loudly enough to turn my christmas lights on

it's getting so close that i'm kinda freaking out,
in a good way, i think
but more in the way of
i have to finish all of my school projects,
i haven't shopped for all of the necessary equipment for paraguay,

so, i'll be here, listening to loud music, singing along, trying to focus,
mostly failing because i'm stuck in this middle ground between anticipation,
summer, and so ready for the end of school and no more work, needing to
get my head back in the game like my mom keeps telling me, thinking about
all of the things i'll bring to the airport for my 6 layover in miami (tv episodes
of modern family and glee on my ipod touch which is fixed, books books books,
radiolab episodes [and if you still don't know what that is, go go go check it out]).

it's like those moments before the judges call out their decision and you're waiting,
antsy, wanting to run a hundred miles an hour, but you don't know where to, jumping
up and down in your seat, distracting yourself, until the moment arrives.


Friday, June 11, 2010

post for the sake of posting :)

Ain't got no trouble in my life,
No foolish dream to make me cry.
I'm never frightened or worried,
I know I'll always get by.
I heat up (I heat up)
I cool down (I cool down)
When something gets in my way I go round it.
Don't let life get me down
Gonna take life the way that I found it.

I got the music in me

-5th grade choir <3

8 days before (maybe not one day early if i count the 20th as the 0th day before :)

My life has a lot of probability in it. It determines how I decide to live or deem important or unimportant. For instance, the probability that I die from not washing my hands when I come home from school (as my mother says), or if studying and doing nothing else for just one more week will make me happy (as I have heard more than a million times). Really everything my overthinking mind thinks about, has to do with the probability that something is true or will happen. Such as, the probability that things would work out with a guy or that my parents will find out that I had been talking on the phone late at night. Probability makes me counter-intuitively rash sometimes, like if I think the probability of negative consequences are small, or the probability of positive consequences outweighs the negative. And that's pretty much the most mathy you will ever see me, and even then, my probability is completely subjective. This is pretty much the only math that I will use frequently or think will have any significant impact on my life, and even then, it's more logic than anything. It allows me and forces me to live and spend less time doing things like worry about improbabilities.       

“If you wait to do everything until you’re sure it’s right, you’ll probably never do much of anything.”
― Win Borden

Thursday, June 10, 2010

9 days before (one day early still :P)

This is going to a nice short ranty philosophical post :)

things i do/dont do/should do/want to do
1. think way too much

2. conjecture too much of the future/people's future thoughts
not worry about the future too much
4. better regulate my thoughts and words
5. learn more about people to help them

Worrying about the future will do nothing to change it, trust me, from experience, and thinking too much can get you in trouble. Learning about people is the most interesting subject I have ever encountered and to help them is the most noble quest I can think of. Science, chemistry, biology, physics are important, but all of our discoveries, if not to make life easier, cure diseases, have some kind of beneficial use to humankind, what is the point? Therefore, psychology is a more direct science that deals with people through no medium other than studying the human itself to learn how to help it by learning why it does what it does. It's like learning things about yourself you never knew but affects you and many people in a huge way. It's amazing and terrifying how much we have yet to know. This is what's called passion.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

10 days before (posted one day early, even though I should be doing work right now)

"Librarians are like the secret superheroes of the world." -John Green
"Awesome can become normal." -John Green

Why do seagulls live by the sea? (highlight to find out)

Because if they lived by the bay, they'd be BAYGULLS.

LMAO, life is good.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

11 days before (posted one day before :)

If you want to hear a short summary about the conflict between Palestine and Israel or more likely, see a ridiculously adorable puppy, exactly like the one I will one day get and name Holden Caulfield, click here:

This is John Green speaking, the best selling author of Looking for Alaska, and his Western Highland Terrier (my favorite dog breed), Willy. 

Monday, June 7, 2010

12 days before (for real this time :)

Watch this:

Watch this:
(if you liked this, they did it at 9/9/09 too)

I can't even describe the feeling I got, just that I felt like crying with this quiet happiness that beauty evokes.


Sunday, June 6, 2010

13 days before (posted a day, because i don't have time)

LOL, I know I've said that three times and have still posted on the day of, but I'm just-in-casing :)
Today was the Amigos Going Away Party in which:

1) I received my Paraguay Visa!
2) I found out I am leaving at 11:10 AM on Monday, June 21st
      2a) Which leads me to 2a, I will not be going to school on Monday!
3) Which leads me to, my last day of school is Friday, June 18
      3a) AKA Field Day, which is a WIN
4) I will have a 6 hour layover in Miami, which I still forget is in Florida and think is in California. (Oh, brain..)

In other news, I may be starting a vlogging channel with a few lovely nerdfighters, who are strangers now, (except for Anna, who goes to my school) but may one day become very much more!
I am very excited about this :)

Last but not least!
The John Green quotes continue:

"What a treacherous thing to believe that a person is more than a person."

 John Green (Paper Towns)

"You can love someone so much...But you can never love people as much as you can miss them."

— John Green

"So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane."

— John Green (Looking for Alaska) (FAVORITE FAVORITE LINE)

Saturday, June 5, 2010

14 days before (posted a day early because I have no time :)

In fact, it seems to me that most contemporary insults are pretty lame. Even 'lame' is kind of lame. Saying 'You're lame' is like saying 'You walk with a limp.' Yeah, whatever, so does 50 Cent, and he's done all right for himself." 
 John Green

"When adults say, "Teenagers think they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail." 
 John Green (Looking for Alaska)

Friday, June 4, 2010

15 days before (posting a day early because I don't have time to post tomorrow)

Because of John Green, Hank Green, and all of the nerdfighters, I now know that I will never be happy unless I marry a nerd and raise my kids to be awesome nerds as well.


What is a nerdfighter?
"A Nerdfighter is like a regular person, except instead of being composed out of tissues and cells and organs, they are made out of awesome." - John Green

16 days before

I love that you get cold when it’s 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you’re looking at me like I’m nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it’s not because I’m lonely, and it’s not because it’s New Year’s Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
- Harry Burns
(when harry met sally)

I’m not a businessman. I’m a business, man.
- Jay Z

Thursday, June 3, 2010

17 days before

I'm a pretty low maintenance girl.
I'm happy with the little things because it's harder to be happy more often, when you care about the unimportant things or a lot of things.
Just make me laugh, let me know that you care about me, feed me good food, and you'll make my day :)

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

20 before, 57 after

Hank, I have a serious question. Why is being a nerd, bad? Saying I notice you’re a nerd is like saying, 'Hey, I noticed that you’d rather be intelligent than be stupid, that you’d rather be thoughtful, than be vapid, that you believe that there are things that are more important than the arrest record of Lindsay Lohan, why is that?' "
John Green, my hero.

100th post?!

21 days before going to a country all by myself for 6 weeks, and 56 days after, already??

For my 100th post, I think I'll go old school and enter some introspective thoughts?
I'll try to make it short and sweet.

So, walking today with my friend Ben, we got to talking, first from my impulsiveness to the way I thought. Or rather, didn't think, before I spoke. We both are different, Ben and I, he thinks about what to say before he says something, and while I do do that, it's not really my default.
For instance, I'll think about an answer in my head when raising my hand in class, but not when I am around my friends just hanging out. I will literally say the first thing out of my mouth, completely honestly, be unguarded.
While Ben and I were walking, I saw a friend walking to his car and I waved and shouted goodbye.
"Like, did you think about that before you did it?" Ben asked.

And my answer is no, it's just an impulse, an honest response, I will see someone that I want to say goodbye to, and I will do it, without much thought beforehand.

Talking to Ben, who on default would think everything before he said it, got me to thinking. Why I didn't I think before I said things?

"So you just say the first thing that pops into your head?" Ben wondered.

Basically. In a conversation, usually, my brain is free of thoughts, otherwise, I could get distracted from the conversation. I'd like to think this means that I am thinking as the same time I am talking, and indeed that is how I form a lot of ideas, verbal brainstorming. But, I  suppose that this lack of "editing" (as Ben calls it) could be at times harmful.

In my defense, I never really liked rough drafts or checking over work or editing or any of that. I like the uncut, unabridged, and for me, my best writing, my best thinking, is always the first production, the first thought, the first ideas, the first essay that I write.

Maybe that's what it's like to be in my brain, unlike Ben's brain, where he thinks about what he wants to say, and then says out loud what of that he chooses to say.

To me, it's like repeating everything twice, it just takes up too much time, it's inhibiting, it's too much thinking.

Maybe sometimes I just need to let my brain shut down for a few minutes or conversations to give it a rest from running amok. It can work itself out in conversation or writing or it can ponder silently, relentlessly.

In short, there's just more time for happiness this way, Ben. (:

Today was a good day :)

Letting your mind play is the best way to solve problems. - Bill Watterson (Calvin and Hobbes)